Anyone else feel like college is sucking the life out of them?
I. Need. Sleep.
Chocolate milk and boob cake will make this day better.
At least that’s what I’m telling myself.
Heading out in the morning with my sister for my first run in two weeks. What up, B?
I enjoy feeling hungry.
Now, now, hear me out. I don’t mean this in some disordered eating way where I enjoy depriving myself of food when my body wants it/needs it. I feel hungry and I feed myself.
What I mean is that I didn’t use to feel hungry. I didn’t recognize that feeling. I suppose it’s because I would eat so much— or eat when I didn’t need it— or eat shit food that would leave me wanting more a short time after, craving the sugar more than the nourishment.
There was a time when I was blind to hunger.
I couldn’t have done “intuitive eating” because I just didn’t know what it felt like to be hungry. And that’s a bad thing.
So now that I have left my binge eating disorder behind, now that I train and eat in a way that’s better both for my body and my mind, I enjoy feeling hungry. Because that feeling is one I didn’t use to have— and it’s a nice reminder of progress. It’s healthy and it feels good to finally be more in tune with my body.
Now to go satisfy this hunger with some eggs and bacon an peanut butter toast.
eternal-evolution said: Being a sexually liberated goddess is the only way to live life. ;) You're wonderful.
You’re twice as fantastic. Much love!! Xoxo
Fill in the blanks and tag 6 people! (don’t forget to tell them you’ve tagged them)
Tagged by Lucas ( usualchatter ) several days ago.
Name: Victoria (but I go by Tori)
Birthday: January 24
Favorite color: Lilac
Lucky number: 16
Talents: I’m talented at making kids comfortable in strange situations. This makes me sound like I’m going to kidnap someone.. What I mean is that I’m really good at being a support group facilitator/nanny/teacher
Last dream you remember: I honestly don’t remember many of my dreams… the last one that comes to mind is months ago. Literally. I dreamed that Cody was cheating on me— when I woke up I was crying and it was so comforting to have him in bed next to me. It was a crazy dream.
Can you juggle: Negative
Art/sports/both: Arts, unless you count horses and running
Do you like writing: Very much
Do you like dancing: Very much
Do you like singing: Oui.
Dream vacation: Greece. I want to go to Santorini so bad I can’t see straight. But it isn’t currently very likely to happen so I’ve been trying to plan a trip to Cabo instead
Dream guy/gal: A supportive partner with similar world views to my own and the same moral judgements. (oh wait THATS CODY)
Dream wedding: Outside. Raining. Fall.
Dream pet: I really love my cat, you guys. So her. Or my horse— I really, really miss having her in my possession.
Dream job: Sex therapist/educator with a good influence on the way my community views and deals with sexual issues
Favorite song: This is impossible? Right at this very second it is probably Atomic Man by Portugal. The Man.
Least favorite song: Smang it girl— Young Humma
Least favorite album: uhm
Least favorite artist: Lucas said Robin Thicke and I couldn’t agree more.
Guys/girls/both: I believe in the fluidity of sexuality and I don’t think I fit into a box. I am going to say guys, but there are some girls in the world that I definitely find more than just aesthetically pleasing.
Hair colour: . Brown
Eye colour: Blue
Humorous/serious: Can I have it all? Seriousness is great in certain circumstances and knowing when is a great trait. (this was Lucas’s answer and I like it so it is staying)
Taller/shorter: Taller. But I’ve dated shorter
Biggest turn-off: Failure to recognize privilege gracefully when confronted with it/sexism/lack of self care
Biggest turn-on: . Ambition. Stability. Self reflective.
I feel like you all are probably a little:
towards me right now. (If you didn’t read that in her exact voice then I’m disappointed in you. Go back and try again) And honestly, I can’t blame you. Basically I suck and I’m sorry and I am vowing once again to stop apologizing and just be here more. I’m trying, guys, I’m trying.
School is in session!! Have I even been around to tell you all about it yet? This semester I am enrolled in some pretty great classes. Intro to Social Work, Human Relations, and LGBT History. They are all really interesting courses, although admittedly more work than I originally thought they were going to be. Still— I’ve already learned a lot and I really respect all of my professors, so it is looking to be a pretty promising semester.
If you guys have ever wondered what a perfect night off looks like to a psych major with a sex ed focus: this is it. New reading material and Zoodles with meatballs (YUM). It has been way, way too crazy in my life lately so the chance to sit tonight and post something here, as well as eat a good home cooked meal and read something is really refreshing.
So far Harmful to Minors has been really fascinating— incredibly well researched and very insightful. I agree with all points made thus far, but as I am super sex-positive and pleasure-positive when it comes to sexual education that isn’t a big surprise.
The zoodles were another great surprise. Found the Veggitti and went to town with it. I know so many people suggest spaghetti squash— but in my attempts at cooking with it I just haven’t been a fan. I don’t like how crunchy the spaghetti squash remains even after it has been cooked forever! The zucchini noodles I made tonight were amazing though. So easy, so quick, and really very delicious— with just the texture I was hoping for. I see a whole world of possibilities opening up to me!
I feel like this post has kinda been all over the place, but then again so have I lately. I’m going to hop off here and read some more while I let my dinner settle in my belly. Maybe I’ll go for a run later? Maybe I’ll just get some sleep….
Thanks for always being so patient and supportive of/with me guys! I can’t say how much I appreciate it! Much love coming your way.
Ps how weird is it going to bed alone for the first time in five months?
This bed is feeling massive and lonely tonight.
Don’t worry, guys; Cody and I are still together. He is just partying it up in Vegas while I’m home and going to work and class.